2019

Last year I made big statements of faith. I was challenged and stretched in many ways. My faith was tested. Sometimes I fell short. Okay many times I fell short.

But I accomplished my goal. While I have more work ahead of me this year, I made some of my biggest strides ever last year. Even with the setbacks and trip ups I still ended the year feeling a peace and love I’d only gotten glimpses of in the past.

I’m still very much a work in progress. But I can feel the growth.

This blog went by ignored despite a deep desire to utilize this space. There was a hesitation I just couldn’t move past. But I’m ready. This week I started a new devotional called 100 Days to Brave. And I want to document my journey here.

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